That night we went to the Texas Roadhouse for his last meal, along with my mom and Jamie (his first line supervisor/friend). I must say that my steak medallions and loaded mashed potatoes were yummy :)
Then it was off for a long night of waiting to tell him good-bye. I felt like I was in a fog all night, constantly holding back tears every time I felt them coming on. I was pretty proud of myself for how well I held it together. It wasn't until the guy came up and announced "Five minutes and then you need to say your final good-byes" that I began to cry uncontrollably. It was the worst feeling in the world knowing that as I held him it would be the last time for a long time.
And here is a poem I love that fits this time in my life perfectly:
I hate to watch
Each time you leave
And I hide from you
How much I grieve
I know it’s your duty
And you will go
But once you are gone
I will miss you so
I know you’ll come home
As soon as you can
But right now you’ll deploy
Like an honorable man
So I’ll keep things together
Till you can come back
But, this is where you belong
Not somewhere in Afghanistan
Yet, I do understand
Why you risk you’re life
For that’s a Soldier’s job
And I’m a Soldier’s wife.


I can't imagine actually saying goodbye! You are such a strong person and I admire you for that! I'm always here for you, in fact I'm pretty sure you will be sick of me! Love you, acasha
ReplyDeleteThank you Acasha. And no I could never get sick of you! You will be the one who gets sick of me ;) Glad we are working together again!
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