6 Months Old

Somehow I have a 6 month old...I blinked and half a year flew by me.  It is so bitter sweet.  I am sad because the days of my teeny tiny guy did not last long enough, and as I pack away old clothes far too small for him I feel a piece of my heart ache.  But with each passing day I get to witness this amazing little guy just grow and blossom into who he is....and it is beautiful.  I am an awe of him every time I turn around, and every milestone he reaches makes me so proud and I can just look at him and beam!  At his 6 month appointment he weighed in at 18 lbs and 3.7 oz and 27.5 inches.  He has definitely mastered rolling over from his back to tummy, and then knows how to scoot around to get to things he wants to grab.  Sometimes I am like "How in the world did you end up there??"  He has begun to figure out how to move his legs to crawl...once he figures out his arms there will be no stopping him.  Mama is in trouble, and definitely need to get to baby proofing this house!!!  He has been having a lot of fun exploring new foods, and so far peaches have been the only thing he was not a fan of.  He has started practicing using a sippy cup (we are officially skipping the whole bottle phase since he refused to take one, and now there is no point ha!), meal times with him next to me in his high chair are so cute (messy but cute), and now that he is able to ride in a shopping cart trips to the store are sooo much easier for mommy! I just love him to pieces, now if we could just tackle sleeping better we will be in business ;)  My husband has been gone a lot for work/training.  The days can get lonely, but luckily little man keeps me on my toes and my parents are only an hour away for when those lonely days can drag on.  I know the next few months are going to be busy, with an even heavier training schedule for my husband, fall is quickly approaching, and before I know it will be busy with all the holidays to come.  I just hope it doesn't go too fast and I can savor these last months before my baby is a big whopping 1 year old!

 

 

 

 

What am I doing wrong?

Well it has been one of those days. I find myself wondering what I am doing wrong, how do I make this better, and even a bleak moment of maybe I am a crummy mom.

First off let me start by saying I do love being a mom...I love my son more then anything in this world. He gives my life purpose and an all new meaning.  I wouldn't trade this for anything.  But I am having a hard time with the big old sleep battle.

Now I know that is part of being a new parent but sometimes I feel like I have been treading water for almost 6 months and am drowning.  I am blessed beyond words with a charismatic,  adorable, loving, baby full of personality.  But sleep is not his strong suit. We still wake constantly through the night (some nights it's literally every hour..on occasional good night's we do go 3/4 hour stretches at times)  And he still refuses to sleep alone... realistically I know he will be 1 before I know it, and I will miss the days of snuggling.  But he will not nap alone,  he is restless in his sleep, and wakes a ton. So I think sleep deprivation is kicking in. And on top of that I haven't had much of any break. I have only left him a handful of times, so I haven't really had any me time to regroup so that I am able to be the best mommy I can. Every body needs a break once in awhile. I just feel like it's non stop and that's been tough. It would be nice to sleep past 6 on occasion after being up several times at night, or to be able to get a little workout in even just at home, or to do something for myself without also trying to juggle my son. Gosh a hot bath and a nice book would be so amazing to unwind. And lord knows I would die for a massage. I don't want or need these things regularly but I do feel like I need it from time to time. Which comes back to the sleep struggle. If he would take just one nap a day alone, I could take that time to do something. Like I said I know this time will pass, and I know this is part of becoming mommy and learning as he grows. I just need it to get a little easier..just need a teeny tiny bit of me time to reset and function so that I can give him 110% without feeling overwhelmed.  In the meantime I just have to breath, enjoy those moments of snuggles, and give the rest to God.