Birthday Week

I have had a busy busy week.  My birthday was yesterday (Oct 20th).  After finding out some of my friends were going to be busy this weekend, I decided to go have some drinks with some friends last Saturday.  Little did I know that my dear mom was secretly planning a happy hour on my behalf.  I showed up thinking I was going for another friend's birthday and to my surprise had ballons, flowers, a cake, and confetti in my name!  It was very nice.  I had a great night with some good friends. 

Then began a busy work week.  I had one co-worker out of town and my boss was getting ready to have a baby (which as I side note, her baby was born on my birthday!)  I was working long days doing opening to closing to help out.  The kids fed off our energy and so we were all a bit restless.  So needless to say by this afternoon I was more then ready for the weekend and picked up some wine on my way home from work!

The night before my birthday I went to diiner with some old family friends, and then yesterday (my birthday) my friend Megan and her boyfriend came and took me to dinner downtown at The Keg Steakhouse, if you have never been there well it is very good!  And their creme brulee is to die for!  She showed up and had bought me flowers....my favorite flower!  It was very sweet and a simple gesture that meant the world to me.  I have some great friends in my life and those ladies mean the world to me!

I am glad the week is done though and am ready to try to unwind from the hecticness that has been my life lately.  I am ready to feel calm, to feel relaxed, and at ease.  I am hopeful for my tomorrows, and as for today I will enjoy my glass of wine and call it a night!

Changes

As many of you may notice my blog (along with my life) is going to be going through some changes.  My former blog name "Oh the Life, Of an Army Wife" has been replaced with "Learn. Live. Hope".  My blog url is now www.ohthelifeofangela.blogspot.com I am the same girl, same blogger, just a new name.  My life and marriage has faced many struggles, I have forgiven for many things, and have reached a point where changes must be made.  I have been on a roller coaster ride the last 3 years (faced 2 deployments and a very serious injury sustained by my husband on the second deployment).  I stood by through it all and tried to always be the best wife I could be.  I however did not receive the love and loyalty I wanted, and so now I am going to endeavour on a whole new roller coaster in my life.  So I invite all my readers to share with me in this new chapter and hope that you all can offer me support in this time of change.

Betrayal

One word, cuts very deep.  Cuts to the core of a person and cuts them down, eats away at them.  You know when you dedicate your life and every piece of yourself to someone and they betray you, it is not easily forgotten.  But you try for the might of you, because you love and are a good person.  But they keep doing it.  you keep forgiving and trying to move on thinking it won't happen again.  Then a tragedy strikes, and you drop your world to be the rock for someone else.  Every day of your life you spend being that rock and support system, even though you are slowly breaking down from the weight on your shoulders.  But you push through and try harder, and have hopes tomorrow couldn't possibly be any worse.  And then one day you are ok, and think you finally made it and things will be great.  Then slam you are once again reminded how worthless you are to that person, how easily they betray you and not think twice about it.  the extent of that betrayal.  And then you are forced to look yourself in the mirror, through the hurt and the disgust and try to find strength to make your next step.  Where does one go from here, how to put all the tiny shattered pieces back together.  You gave your all to someone, and they gladly took it all.  I am broken...broken from betrayal.