Betrayal

One word, cuts very deep.  Cuts to the core of a person and cuts them down, eats away at them.  You know when you dedicate your life and every piece of yourself to someone and they betray you, it is not easily forgotten.  But you try for the might of you, because you love and are a good person.  But they keep doing it.  you keep forgiving and trying to move on thinking it won't happen again.  Then a tragedy strikes, and you drop your world to be the rock for someone else.  Every day of your life you spend being that rock and support system, even though you are slowly breaking down from the weight on your shoulders.  But you push through and try harder, and have hopes tomorrow couldn't possibly be any worse.  And then one day you are ok, and think you finally made it and things will be great.  Then slam you are once again reminded how worthless you are to that person, how easily they betray you and not think twice about it.  the extent of that betrayal.  And then you are forced to look yourself in the mirror, through the hurt and the disgust and try to find strength to make your next step.  Where does one go from here, how to put all the tiny shattered pieces back together.  You gave your all to someone, and they gladly took it all.  I am broken...broken from betrayal.