Monday, January 12, 2015

New Year New Shop

I have been working the last few months to bring a little dream into reality.  It is amazing just how much our children truly do for us.  How much they open our eyes, teach us, guide us.  For so many reasons they are a blessing from God....even through all the hard, tiring, frustrating moments.  They never fail to be a gift to us.  My son has proven to be an inspiration for my new shop Learn Lie Hope Apparel.  I have always had a creative side, one that I have wanted to tap into but never quite put my finger on what or how.  I have also always known that I want to be home to raise, teach, and watch my son grow. But in that, I will admit I lost my own identity somewhat, being consumed in mommyhood.  A few months back, this idea came to me.  I had ideas bouncing around in my head of shirt designs I would love Caleb to wear.  I also am an avid small business shopper myself. Then a light went off...why don't I just do it.  Go for it.  Create my own line of shirts.  So that is what I did.  Not only is it something I am truly proud of, excited about, and guided by my love, hope, and dreams for my son...but it is something entirely my own.  My ideas, my hobby, my vision.  Something beyond nursing, changing, playing with, and caring for Caleb.  Something more than the never ending laundry, cooking, cleaning, Target runs.  Though I love those pieces of me, and my life.  I need to break it up with something for ME.  No I don't get alone time like I used to, or massages and manis/pedis as often as I'd like.  I can't just run off to dinner with friends, or go shopping for hours like I once did.  And that's ok.  But this I can do.  In the few hours between Caleb going to bed, and myself going to bed.  In the few minutes in the day where I get a second to myself.  And in all the other hours I will continue to devote to my son and maintaining my home.  So though it's new, and a very small business...I am proud.  I am happy.  And I have nothing but positive vibes and hopes for my little shop.  And if nothing else, it allows me a tiny bit of time to let my imagination run...and hopefully others will like what I come up with!

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Caleb's 1st Christmas

Well Caleb's 1st Christmas was nice.  He definitely loved having the tree/Christmas lights to admire in the weeks leading up, and he had plenty of gifts to open.  I think he was a bit overwhelmed by it all, but he has enjoyed playing with all his new goodies in the days since.  A few nights before Christmas we drove over to a block of homes who has lights set to the music on a local radio station.  He loved it and was trying to escape the car to get closer to the lights. Haha.  I just love him and it was the perfect way to end what has definitely been such an important year.  I can hardly believe it's New Years Eve tonight.  I feel like this year just began, and now it's coming to an end.  It is truly amazing just how fast time goes...Having a child only made a year go ten times faster.  I swear between pregnancy and these first months with him...I think I have been in a time warp.  Just the other day I accidently said I was 23...uh I am 25.  Two years just slipped by me somehow.  Sadly I know time wont slow down...and each day is so precious.  My biggest goal for 2015 is to just take each day and truly cherish it.  Every second whether happy, or tiring, or frustrated, or laughing...cherish it all!

Wednesday, December 24, 2014

Blogging Hiatus

I clearly took a blogging hiatus...and honestly I cant promise I will be better buuut I will try.  This year has literally just flown by.  I have tried to soak up every moment of this first year with my sweet boy, because I blink and he is another month older.  I find myself scrolling through photos and in such disbelief of how much he has grown and changed in front of my very eyes.  And now it's going to be his first Christmas.  He absolutely adores the Christmas tree and all the lights.  I am excited to watch him open all his gifts tomorrow.  I honestly have so much I want to/could blog about since it has been so long...but I will settle for posting his monthly photos from the last few months for now, and save all the holiday stuff for another post!

Yup...he makes my heart melt!

Tuesday, September 2, 2014

First Zoo Trip

This past weekend I had one goal in take Caleb to the zoo for the very first time.  I realize he is still young and will appreciate it more when he is a bit older, but still it was fun to do as a family since we really haven't done much else this summer.  And some how summer has quickly slipped away and fall is upon us.  I am looking forward to fall this year though.  Maybe because it's the first fall with Caleb, or maybe because a decorating bug has attacked me and I am excited to get our home a cozy fall feel.  I have been working on a bunch of little projects here and there and am really liking the way it has made the house feel much more like our home.  I will have to do a post here soon on all of that.

Anyways, Caleb did great at the zoo.  I thought he might be put off by some of the animals, but he wasn't at all.  He enjoyed his walk around the zoo, loved looking at the tress as we went, and was fully willing to help feed and touch the giraffes.  At one point a giraffe had his tingue out grabbing lettuce from me, and Caleb reached right out wrapping his little hand around that big slimy tongue as the giraffe slid it back in it's mouth. haha.  And he also got in very intense stare off with a Lemur ;)



And while we are on the subject of firsts...Caleb first began sleeping in his crib last week!  Up until now I have had no luck with him sleeping at all unless he was held or in his car seat.  Every few weeks I would attempt laying him down and it would only last about 10 minutes followed by a very big meltdown.  So last week I thought I would give it a try and to my surprise when I laid him down...he stayed asleep!  So it has been almost a week of successfully napping in his crib, and sleeping part of the night in his crib.  The next big hurdle is getting him to stay asleep longer then his typical 2 hours at night, or his 1/2 to 1 hour at naps.  Though I am not complaining because the simple fact he is sleeping in his crib is huge, and that it simply just happened one day!  I am so grateful and fingers crossed we keep moving in a positive direction with his sleep!

Monday, August 25, 2014

6 Months Old

Somehow I have a 6 month old...I blinked and half a year flew by me.  It is so bitter sweet.  I am sad because the days of my teeny tiny guy did not last long enough, and as I pack away old clothes far too small for him I feel a piece of my heart ache.  But with each passing day I get to witness this amazing little guy just grow and blossom into who he is....and it is beautiful.  I am an awe of him every time I turn around, and every milestone he reaches makes me so proud and I can just look at him and beam!  At his 6 month appointment he weighed in at 18 lbs and 3.7 oz and 27.5 inches.  He has definitely mastered rolling over from his back to tummy, and then knows how to scoot around to get to things he wants to grab.  Sometimes I am like "How in the world did you end up there??"  He has begun to figure out how to move his legs to crawl...once he figures out his arms there will be no stopping him.  Mama is in trouble, and definitely need to get to baby proofing this house!!!  He has been having a lot of fun exploring new foods, and so far peaches have been the only thing he was not a fan of.  He has started practicing using a sippy cup (we are officially skipping the whole bottle phase since he refused to take one, and now there is no point ha!), meal times with him next to me in his high chair are so cute (messy but cute), and now that he is able to ride in a shopping cart trips to the store are sooo much easier for mommy! I just love him to pieces, now if we could just tackle sleeping better we will be in business ;)  My husband has been gone a lot for work/training.  The days can get lonely, but luckily little man keeps me on my toes and my parents are only an hour away for when those lonely days can drag on.  I know the next few months are going to be busy, with an even heavier training schedule for my husband, fall is quickly approaching, and before I know it will be busy with all the holidays to come.  I just hope it doesn't go too fast and I can savor these last months before my baby is a big whopping 1 year old!


Tuesday, August 5, 2014

What am I doing wrong?

Well it has been one of those days. I find myself wondering what I am doing wrong, how do I make this better, and even a bleak moment of maybe I am a crummy mom.

First off let me start by saying I do love being a mom...I love my son more then anything in this world. He gives my life purpose and an all new meaning.  I wouldn't trade this for anything.  But I am having a hard time with the big old sleep battle.

Now I know that is part of being a new parent but sometimes I feel like I have been treading water for almost 6 months and am drowning.  I am blessed beyond words with a charismatic,  adorable, loving, baby full of personality.  But sleep is not his strong suit. We still wake constantly through the night (some nights it's literally every hour..on occasional good night's we do go 3/4 hour stretches at times)  And he still refuses to sleep alone... realistically I know he will be 1 before I know it, and I will miss the days of snuggling.  But he will not nap alone,  he is restless in his sleep, and wakes a ton. So I think sleep deprivation is kicking in. And on top of that I haven't had much of any break. I have only left him a handful of times, so I haven't really had any me time to regroup so that I am able to be the best mommy I can. Every body needs a break once in awhile. I just feel like it's non stop and that's been tough. It would be nice to sleep past 6 on occasion after being up several times at night, or to be able to get a little workout in even just at home, or to do something for myself without also trying to juggle my son. Gosh a hot bath and a nice book would be so amazing to unwind. And lord knows I would die for a massage. I don't want or need these things regularly but I do feel like I need it from time to time. Which comes back to the sleep struggle. If he would take just one nap a day alone, I could take that time to do something. Like I said I know this time will pass, and I know this is part of becoming mommy and learning as he grows. I just need it to get a little easier..just need a teeny tiny bit of me time to reset and function so that I can give him 110% without feeling overwhelmed.  In the meantime I just have to breath, enjoy those moments of snuggles, and give the rest to God.

Tuesday, July 22, 2014

Stitch Fix #2

I must say I love getting these little gems in the mail. Something about not knowing what I am getting, and all the anticipation,  just makes me happy like a kid in a candy store. And this mama needs a little excitement like that in the mix of constant babbling to Caleb, diaper/outfit changes, nursing, and the ever constant sleep struggle. Ha! So I was of course very happy to see the FedEx man arrive (I seriously love FedEx...they seem to deliver all my favorites: Stitch FixAdvoCare, and Artsy Couture..whom I got a package from today too but I will save that for another post).

On to my fix...what I got, what I thought:

1. Tulle's Caia Floral Sheath Dress - Upon first seeing it I thought the pattern was ok. Not something I would normally pick but liked it. When I put it on I knew it wasn't for me.  I didn't think it did much for flattering my figure. It kind of just hung like a loose box over my chest. Overall just didn't care for it in me, so sending it back.

2. Tart's Rochelle Abstract Print Soft Short- I really liked the color and ikat print of these. But that is all.  I was weary to see shorts in a soft fabric, and sure enough when I put them on they just reminded me of pajama bottoms.  Sending back. 

3. Fun2Fun's Loretta Crochet Detail Cap Sleeve Blouse - This I loved looking at right away. Simple, classic, and the crochet detail was adorable. I put it on and immediately thought I must have this one. But then I realized it felt a bit snug in the sleeve/shoulder area. It fit perfectly but if I reached forward or stretch my arms up it was really tight, to the point I would be afraid to rip a stitch.  And since I am a mama with a very active babe, I thought this just isn't practical because I would be so sad if I kept it and tore it. Sooo bummed to be sending this one back, maybe need in a bigger size!

4. Hourglass Lilly's Karrie Mixed George Print Maxi Skirt - I had asked to maybe have a maxi skirt in this fix so I was very happy to see this. I love maxi skirts and dresses and just how easy and flowy they are, but I don't own many. This I loved right away and was a definite yes. I really liked how soft it was, perfect length, and the pattern/color is great. I am excited to pair it with my denim jacket or possibly a turquoise top. Keeping!
5. Pixley's Talula Tassel Lariat Necklace in Silver  - This is so cute and I always love the look of tassel necklaces paired with outfits.  I liked the color and thickness of it and thought it was super cute on. My only dilemma is I haven't been wearing necklaces very often since I had my son, for fear of him grabbing and possibly breaking them. But I realize that I will wear necklaces at some point even if it's not every day. And I do really like it, so I am perplexed on this one. To keep or send back the necklace...that is the question...